Between Two Worlds

In an emergency to save her life, Rebecca has a close call as she hovers between two worlds with her departed son and mother. 

Last October, Rebecca began to have some pain in her body. After visiting her doctor in January, both figured it was not too serious and just chalked it up to some premenopausal issues.

Recently, Rebecca woke up in severe pain which was so bad that she was rushed to the hospital in an ambulance. As it turned out, the unknown 8cm mass on Rebecca’s ovary ruptured and infection spread throughout her body. Needing to have two different surgeries to repair the damage, Rebecca was constantly being injected with opiates much stronger than Morphine. Even though she was not a big fan of opioids, they proved to be necessary for her to deal with her extreme pain level.

Although she was in the hospital for some time, she could only recall her last week. “However,” Rebecca tells me, “I do remember thinking Kenny was walking by my bed because I saw the back of his head. But, strangely, I remember seeing him while my eyes were closed. I recall hearing classical music playing very loud and behind my eyes, I watched as my mom danced the waltz. She would glide by me. She was so happy and dressed just like a professional dancer. I never saw her dance partner though.”

“When I told my dad about this, he said I was in the ICU for several days and that the ICU had music playing. It’s odd that I remember nothing about being in the ICU. I do not recall any family coming to see me. I do not recall being transferred to a regular room. But… I distinctly recall my experiences with Kenny, my mom and the music playing loudly in my mind. It was like a movie playing behind my eyes. I heard a lot of whispering in my ears but I don’t recall what was said. I actually stayed in the ICU an extra day because the nurses told my family that I was heavily sedated. I don’t know if it was the pain meds but it was really beautiful watching my mom.”

Kenny and Mom

Kenny and Mom

“So… as clear as the experiences I had with Kenny since his passing were, watching my mom dancing and seeing her smiling, there is nothing else I can remember from the ICU. For me, that tells me that they were watching over me and I’m lucky.”

“When the Dr. explained that the outcome could have easily gone the other way, I suddenly realized that since Ken’s passing, I’ve been going through the motions of life but not really living life; more like flopping like a fish out of water. When Ken passed I didn’t care if I lived or died and used to say it out loud. Learning I could have died changed something in my head. I’m not ready to leave my kids yet. I don’t want them to go through life events without me. In saying that, I still feel guilt for Ken’s passing and that I’m not ready to join him yet. That’s something I have to work on. The last night I was in the hospital, I started asking the different nurses who came in my room if they had experienced anything paranormal and each one that I talked to had a story to tell. Even though I was extremely sick, I’m glad for this experience.”

Rebecca's Dime Sign

Rebecca’s Dime Sign

“When I got home from the hospital, I was going through my pictures on my phone. It was not until I saw this image that I even recalled taking it in the first place or that there was anything unusual on my bed. But now I remember!”

“I only got up from the bed to use the restroom. The nurses would come in and change the sheets, but not too often because it was hard for me to get up. Anyway, I got up that morning, the last morning I was in the hospital, and saw that there was a dime under me and I took a picture of it! I must have thought it strange. I obviously didn’t have any coins on me in my hospital gown and I don’t remember any nurse throwing coins around so…. this must have been a sign that my mom and Ken were with me.”

Commentary- I was smiling when I learned of Rebecca’s latest experience. Not just because she got to see Kenny, and her mother dancing the waltz in an after-death communication. Not because she realized that they’ve been watching out for her all of this time, and certainly not because she got sick, but because of something very important and amazing that Rebecca had yet to realize. And… it took everything in me to not tell her what else happened, before revealing the surprise of it in this commentary. (I hope she’s surprised)

Rebecca did not remember anything in the hospital simply because she wasn’t there. Well, her body was occupying her hospital bed, but her consciousness was definitely not. Rebecca was between two worlds.

You’ll notice that, from behind closed eyes, Rebecca recalls seeing Kenny walking by and her mother dancing the waltz. If she were actually witnessing this behind her physical eyelids, it would have been impossible for her to see what she saw. She also said she heard the music so clearly along with the many whispers that she could not discern. But in the hospital, there would be no reason for them to whisper in her ear or to play the music that Rebecca’s mother was so perfectly waltzing to. So what was it then?

I am so delighted to inform Rebecca that what she experienced was far more than an after-death communication, letting her know that her son and mother were lovingly watch over her. What Rebecca experienced was a near-death experience! And that’s pretty darn amazing!

Although Rebecca may not have experienced the tunnel of light or some other obvious indication that a near-death experience was happening at the time, for she may not have immediately recognized it, Rebecca did experience some very important hallmarks of a bonafide near-death experience. For one, it is clear that she (her consciousness), was not in this physical realm. That’s because she was in a spiritual realm with the loved ones who have passed. Secondly, she was easily able to have constant contact with her loved ones who have passed. Perhaps all that she experienced with their constant companionship, was their way of comforting her while she undecidedly straddled between worlds, as their love and presence emotionally nursed her back to life. Thirdly, she actually was near death. But the most telling sign of her near-death experience is that it changed her in an unmistakable way. You see, this experience has caused her to finally, finally, finally… choose her life here, despite her guilt of not being able to be with her son, Kenny. Yes, while Rebecca’s life hung in the balance, at some point, she made a clear choice to stay. And stay she did.

Consciousness is an interesting thing. It’s like a ladder we slowly climb. In any particular moment, we are only aware of our position on the rung that we are currently on. In Rebecca’s case, she had been grieving over her son, Kenny, for so long. She never thought that wanting to actually live again would be a possibility she could look forward to. But then, something happened and she gained the type of perspective that she needed to finally begin to heal. Don’t you hear it in her own written words? Whether it was her close call or her doctor’s words of validation of just how close of call it was, it’s clear to me that Rebecca has turned the corner on her healing journey.

What happened in Rebecca’s near-death/out-of-body experience, she may not remember completely at this moment. But in time, more pieces of her experience may creep into her awareness as she climbs the ladder of consciousness. But something did happen to Rebecca to cause this sort of transformation. That’s for sure. This experience of becoming sick and almost losing her life, probably saved her life. Although this experience was uncomfortable and even extremely painful, it has really proved to have served her well.

And… as Rebecca convalesces from her recent brush with death, may her body, heart and soul heal from the losses of her life that have stopped her from truly living again.

And yes. As appearing coins are common in after-death communications, Rebecca’s dime was there to tell her that she can trust her experiences there with her mother and son, and also… to validate that something truly mystical, valuable and amazing occurred while she was there.

Me and Ken

Me and Ken

More about Kenny in Those Yellow Trunks, Together Again, What is it Like to Lose a Child? and Life’s Going to be Alright.

Benny’s Spirit

Bridgette is able to coax Benny into appearing on his birthday and in the meantime, she catches his spirit (orb) flying by on video from the “other side.”

Bridgette writes:
“LOOK AT THIS Jade! OMG, AMAZING! Today is Benny’s birthday, who recently passed away. He is the father of my sons, Tim & Durell’s, who have also crossed over. What makes this so amazing is that I was asking him to show me his spirit, like Durell did and I caught this on video.

These are different screenshots of the video I sent you. The smaller one is after the bright light flew by, then bounced back as a smaller greenish light.

I’ve really been sensing a presence here lately. And also, have been seeing movement sometimes day and night. They were images of a man; but only out the corner of my eye and never straight on. (Benny’s spirit shows up around 30 seconds into the video)

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The first image is a still shot of the bright flash. The second image shows the bright flash has changed into a small greenish orb on the middle right side of image.

Still Shot of Orb 2

Still Shot of Orb 2

Still shot of Orb 1

Still shot of Orb 1

Mary Ann’s Flying Orb

This image was recently sent to me by my friend, Mary Ann, who had an after-Christmas tea with some friends.

The orb that was captured flying through space, appears over the right shoulder of Mary Ann. At first, she didn’t even notice it. A friend had to point it out. This is the case with most anomalies that appear in images. People miss them because their brain automatically filters them out, and/or discounts these anomalies as just something to do with the camera and lighting.

No doubt this is Carl, Mary Ann’s devoted husband, visiting from the “other side” to photo bomb their picture. You go boy!
For more about Mary Ann and Carl, see, May I Have This Dance?

Mary Ann's Orb

Mary Ann’s Orb

“Hi” From Heaven

In this after-death communication, Liz’s father says “hi” from the heavens, as her name is literally written in the sky.

Liz writes:
“On a weekend last November, my partner and I were walking up the road. It was 11 am on a beautiful sunny day with a clear blue sky. I looked up and saw just one tiny white cloud. Across the sky to my right there was another one – it had formed the name Liz, which is my name. I looked to see what was coming next as I immediately thought it was an airplane sign-writing in the making. (We have a few of these here with people proposing marriage in grand ways).”

“But, when I realized there was no plane and it was literally just a cloud, I quickly said to my partner, “Look up there, that cloud has formed in my name.” By then… it was too late as I’d waited too long to tell him, and the upper winds had started breaking the clouds up. By the time he looked up it was just a wisp of a cloud. I’m not sure if that’s possible for a spirit to do that. I like to remain optimistic and that it was a message from my Dad letting me know he was thinking of me.”

Commentary- It sure is possible, although it doesn’t happen often enough. Perhaps it is only because we are not always focused on the sky. Experiencers have seen their name, written messages and even images of their loved ones face in the clouds that frame the heavens. 

You’ll notice that, to come up with a possible explanation for the lettering she was seeing in the sky, at first, Liz thought it could only be a man-made invention created by a plane. This is common when we see something that is out of the ordinary because we want things to make sense. But when she realized that there was no plane? Now that’s a different story!

Yes Liz, even though your partner wasn’t able to see it before the cloud began to change course, you did… at the most perfect moment! That is what’s important, as this message was intended just for you to see. Trust yourself. When these images and messages happen out of the literal “clear blue sky,” you can believe you eyes. Your Dad said, “Hi” from heaven and his message to you is that he is watching over you from on high.

Love from Heaven

Love from Heaven

The Gifts They Give Through Others

Two women learn that acting on the spiritual promptings of a deceased loved one makes a world of difference, for the ones who would receive them.

During the holidays, instead of getting the usual customary cakes and hampers as a Christmas gift and greeting, Elisa received a beautiful bouquet of Christmas flowers. On the surface, this may not seem to be out of the ordinary, but to Elisa, who was missing Eric during the holiday season… this gift of flowers was quite special and significant. In fact, although it was sent by an unwitting person, this particular gift of flowers had Eric’s metaphorical fingerprints… All over it! 
(In Roses, My Love? you see that while Eric was living, all Elisa wanted was for him to send her flowers!) Continue reading

Don’t Wait to Appreciate

Back in the late 1980’s, I often took a road trip from Utah to visit California; my old stomping grounds. Traveling through the barren desert of Nevada, just outside of the mountain range exiting the Utah/Arizona Border, there was an extraordinary place someone once told me about with such excitement, that I had to stop and see it for myself. So, on one such trip, I finally did it. I exited the freeway at Homestead Road and found my way across the other side of the freeway to an area where this supposed “really cool place” existed like a paradisiacal mirage in the desert.

I parked my car on a dirt parking lot and walked toward the cliff that led down to the river that ran under the freeway overpass, to see what I could see. I saw it! Right before my eyes, it was as if this part of desert landscape, in this small desolate town, out of nowhere, turned into some sort of Garden of Eden! Continue reading

The Gifts They Leave Behind

While cleaning the house, shortly before Christmas, Pat finds a Christmas gift from Dustin, intended for his mother.

Dustin's gift

Dustin’s gift

Pat writes:
“When I was cleaning a few weeks before Christmas, I found this gift all wrapped up, under the couch. It was from Dustin’s last Christmas here.”

“Dustin was always buying me little knick knacks. Somehow, it was stuck under the couch from 2014. (Shows how well I clean.)”

“Didn’t find it until a few weeks ago…2016.
I think he did this on purpose. My Christmas gift from Dustin…2016. He wanted me find it.”

Commentary- I am never surprised when I hear of this happening. I have even experienced this for myself from time to time. When this happens, it is fantastic! Somehow you just know that the gift you found was intended for you to find at that very moment. Continue reading

Is Suicide the Answer?

Since Raj’s tragic passing, Archana has been devastated enough to consider suicide. But this time, Raj asks her to promise to serve out her purpose without him.

Archana writes:
“Yesterday when I got up, I stood in front of God’s photo and said, “It’s enough, and I’m tired. Please take me back to you!”

“Even while talking to a friend at another time, I said, “I have no intention of living. Every day, I wake up hoping it should be the last day. But somehow, death is not ready for me yet.”

Godavari River

Godavari River. Across the river where Raj drown.

“Well, last night, I had a dream where I was at the river bank where Raj tragically drowned. In my dream, I was talking to a friend about how the tragedy happened. Then, to my surprise, Raj came walking up in the sand and sat down next to me. I smiled at him and asked, “When is my turn? I want to be with you.” He took my hand in his and said, “Promise me that you’ll not commit suicide.”

“I don’t remember what happened after that, but it felt good to know that Raj was listening to my words. Still… it’s really tough to take so much pain in one life.” Continue reading

An Unexpected Visit

In an after-death communication, Amber, a self-proclaimed atheist, receives a message of love and comfort from her mother on the “other side.”

Amber writes:
“My Mother died in 2015. As my last living family member and with the Mother- Daughter connection that we shared, the first year has been the saddest in my 55 years of life. However, I take sweet comfort in her love for me, and in a moment after her death that I hold close to my heart.”

“It was one month after her passing. I had another day of steady tears and inconsolable sadness. The huge thing was simple: she was gone and I was alone without her. I came home exhausted from the day, sat on the couch and continued my sobbing. Then, I heard her! She said, in a voice I remember as that of how she sounded when she was in her 30s, not the weakened tone of her 78 year-old dying of cancer self. (And this is something in and of itself; that she spoke with a healthy young voice. If I was to create a message in my head from her, I would never have thought to change her voice to her younger days.) And what she said was exactly enough – not one extra word needed to be spoken. “Amber, I love you. I am here with you.”
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Taking Control of the Holidays

I know experiencing the holiday season without our loved ones can bring up a lot of emotional stuff. That’s bound to happen. But just a few quick ideas about how to navigate the holiday season to make sure that YOU are powerfully in charge.



Customarily, Thanksgiving is a time to be thankful and to show our gratitude. I recommend taking some quiet time during the day to write a letter to your loved one. In it, you could express your gratitude for them and what they contributed to your life. You might even place a token or offering (something meaningful) for them with your letter as you put it in a special place; a self-made altar, a drawer or decorative box that holds the things of theirs that you treasure. Oh sure, you may have a good cry, but let it all out. Crying is the body’s natural way to release pain and the process of letting the tears out creates brain chemicals that will help us to feel better each and every time we cry. Crying won’t hurt you, it will heal you. So don’t be afraid of those tears, or even those emotions that are causing those tears. Feel what there is to feel. It’s okay. Continue reading

Grieving Pets

When Charlie’s master, John, passes from this Earth, this loyal and beautiful doe-eyed kitty-cat sits at the window each day, awaiting his return home.

Deena, John’s long time girlfriend, recalls her sweetheart, John, and his loyal female cat named Charlie:



“John always had a love for animals. When his father died, John left grammar school to become a farmer, which he did for the next 20 years of his life. During his farming career, he had several run ins with the local policeman who kept telling him not to keep the tractor running as he kept jumping on and off of it, because it was against the law to do so. One day, this policeman told John that he would make a good policeman. Soon after, John quit the farm and joined the police Academy where he was a very good police officer for 31 years! John was one in a million.” Continue reading

Grief Compounded

Shortly after Margaret lost her Father, Arthur, who I wrote about in the last post, “The Present”, there was another sad loss of life that further compounded her grief.



Margaret writes:
“We had another very sad loss over the weekend which was compounded by many factors. My husband, Joe, let ICE, our beautiful 3-year-old pit bull out at 5 am. She went after a lizard and fell into the deep end of our pool. She went straight down. It all happened right in front of him. Somehow Joe was able to get her out and tried to do CPR but couldn’t save her. So there is shock and guilt and a lot of grief. There is no answer or explanation to find comfort.”


Angela and ICE

Angela and ICE

“I have not had a dream about my Dad since he died 3 months ago, until this happened. I went back to sleep at 10 am after this horrible incident and had this dream. My daughter, Angela, was talking to my Dad on the phone. I told her to ask him if he had our dog, ICE. (In my dream, I think both my Dad and ICE were alive).She asked him and turned to me to say, “Pop pop has her!” Without really thinking about it, I said, “OK, let’s go get her!” In my dream, we were on our way to meet my Dad to pick ICE up, but I woke up before we got there. Strange, yet not.” Continue reading

The Present

When a powerpoint, “The Present” arrives in an email for Christmas, Margaret’s mother is forced to believe that this was sent from her deceased husband, Arthur.

Margaret writes:

Margaret's Mom & Dad

Margaret’s Mom & Dad

“My Dad passed away on September 21, 2015. Although he was 85 years old, it was sudden and unexpected. We were extremely close and I was/am devastated.”

“My Mom was a rock after my Dad died. She seemed to be busy tending to things like canceling Dr.’s appointments, writing letters, sorting through things, etc. I wondered what would happen when there was nothing further to do. She is a very strong woman and far less emotional than I am.”

“Christmas was difficult and when I called her, she seemed sad on that day, although she was doing her best to put on a good front, trying to comfort me. There was just something different that day and although she would never admit it, I could sense it. I miss my Dad every day, but Christmas seemed even harder. He was everything to me.” Continue reading

At the Brink…

Just when Lara was at the brink of her capacity, she experienced this amazing near-death experience!

Lara writes:
“I was severely depressed at the time before my NDE. I had gotten into a car accident a year ago and suffered short term memory loss. My neck and back were also in a lot of pain and my left eye would twitch at times.”

“Family life was unbearable, dealing with school, mom’s chronic illness, dad’s neglect and gambling addiction, and brother’s focus on himself. My sanity and patience started to dwindle.”

“Weeks before my NDE, I wasn’t able to study for a college exam and was under extreme stress. My moods were up and down. The only way I knew how to cope with all the stresses in my life was through an eating disorder. I began to eat less and less and lost a lot of weight. My stomach was always in pain and I had no energy to do anything. I was very fatigued and hanging on by a thread.” Continue reading

GriefandMourning Beacon (Vol. 1)

Warm greetings, friends and readers of!

I hope you and yours are well, and that your summer/winter season, wherever you may live, has been good and peaceful.

Just a heads up! As you can see by the “Vol. 1” in this post, I have just started up the first periodic/newsletter/beacon for the Grief and Mourning website. Although I don’t necessarily like extra reading, myself, I found it a necessary line of communication in order for me to send you my personal greetings of love, thoughts and disseminate announcements about upcoming classes and other important information that you may be interested in. I promise to keep it short and sweet!

Coming up soon. I will be teaching my 4-week online class, “Connect With Your Departed? Being Your Own Medium” Series. Classes start October 7th. Early bird special is up now. There is also a special repeaters cost for those who want to stay in the conversation. Here’s the information about the upcoming classes, along with participant testimonials. 

Upcoming Classes   •   Connect With Your Departed?  •  Testimonials

Also, I will be offering a variety of interesting and insightful classes. Even some free ones. They just take time to create. I will announce these in my upcoming newsletters.

...on the ride of our lives

…on the ride of our lives

Thank you for reading. My love and blessing of peace and healing go out to all of you.

May you always know that you are never alone in your trials and tribulations. We are all on this ride together. Hang on!

Thank you for your support. I truly appreciate it.

Love and living light,