After 7 year old Kayla’s older cousin, Nick, dies by suicide, in a dream, she has an opportunity to unstick him and end his mental torment of regret
Kayla wrote:
“When I was really young I used to follow my older cousin, Nick, around. I wanted to be just like him. He was 15 and I was only 7 when he ended up committing suicide.”
“Shortly after his death, I had an amazing dream about him. The dream began with me standing in front of a large building that seemed to be surrounded by fog. When I stepped inside I realized there was no ceiling and I could see so many stars and more clouds. That’s when I realized I was in a building that was in the sky.”
“It appeared to be a bar and it wasn’t very well lit up inside, it was dark and kinda hazy with some red lighting. I noticed bar stools in front of me and then I finally noticed Nick was sitting on one of them to my right.”
“I hurried over to him and sat next to him, I was happy to see him but he looked upset, his eyes lowered and he was just playing with his straw in his drink. At the time I didn’t understand why he appeared upset, I wanted him to say something, anything to me but he wouldn’t. I now realize he was probably just embarrassed about what he had done or didn’t know how to explain what he did to a seven year old.”
“I kept waiting for him to say something or do anything for what seemed like a long time.. Finally, after fifteen minutes he hugged me and said, “you gotta go, you can’t stay here” and then the dream was over.”
Commentary
These dreams (after-death communications), can reveal a lot about the situation someone is in. There is a lot of important information here that if understood can bring important information plus… considerable comfort and healing.
The large building surrounded by fog respresented confusion. Nick was experiencing a great deal of mental torment and was obviously stuck at the time. The building in the sky with the open ceiling represented part of a journey but not quite completed. In other words, he was welcome to proceed but just could not bring himself to do it at the time. This was his mental state.
It’s not unheard of that way stations exist on our return back to the light. It’s like a docking station for weary travelers. However, although this could be a physical or ethereal place, for sure, it is a mental one first and foremost. This would be a place to rest, contemplate or make choices before confronting what lies ahead. It could even be a place for lost souls.
Karla is right. His mental anguish was stopping him from moving forward. After his successful suicide attempt, realizing his mistake, there is no doubt he was filled with guilt, shame and regret. This is evidenced by his devastation and inability to speak or look at Kayla for a while. It was hard for him to face her. As many might already know, guilt and shame are horrible feelings, making it seem nearly impossible to forgive oneself and thus move on from.
The Healing Power of Innocence
The beautiful part of the experience was when the pure and innocent child, Kayla, came over to see him. In fact, She was excited to see him and there was such love in her heart. I can see how that mighty power could begin to melt away the anguish of his unworthiness in that very moment. Her pure message conveyed was that nothing could change her love for him. Through the eyes of this child who adored him immensely, he still had so much value. You can imagine something like that creating a lot of transformation within himself.
Nick’s focus and caring returned to Kayla to tell her to go, as this wasn’t the place for her. His hug indicated to her that she made a difference in his state and that she would care enough to come. Guaranteed, Nick’s healing began in that moment with the clarity that she brought him.
Nick was stuck on his spiritual journey. Kayla got him loose and back on the road again. Sometimes, the most paralyzing and painful journey in one’s own thinking is learning to forgive yourself. Remembering your innocence is often the most powerful antidote.
