After searching for his old High School love, Carolann, who was struggling with addiction and living on the streets, Ron receives an after-death communication from her.
“Hello, wonder if you could help me with this. My first real lucid dream. I think it was a dream that turned into an ADC, it was SO real! It’s about an ex who recently passed away. I’ve been trying to find her, because for the past 5 years until she passed, she has been homeless and struggling with addiction on the streets of Boston. I tried very hard to find her. I was too late.”
“It started out as a regular dream; me and my family had all moved back to Florida, got some animals, but I was pissed cuz’ the dung heap was placed too close to the house, and I knew there’d be millions of flies in the house. Weird, because the only pets we have ever had were some hamsters.”
“I then realized I was dreaming by using the squiggly fingers reality check. Everything was so real, not like a dream at all. I pinched myself, and I felt my skin for REAL. No difference from real life at all, and the whole dream felt like this, all the way through it.”
“I took off, flew through the air going to Lexington green to watch the battle. Ended up looking for her, don’t know why, or how, to see her and try to get her into South bay.
Weird cuz’ I hadn’t been there for a year, even though I had spoken previously in the real world with the director about if I could bring someone in right off the street if I happened to see her somewhere. He said that would be fine, they do take walk-ins, and since she was getting SSDI (Social Security Disability Insurance), her Massachusetts health would most likely cover it.”
“I ended up first at a rehab in-patient residence in western Massachusetts. I was surprised to have gotten there, thought I had been heading for Lexington. It was a huge, modern place, like a school built in the fifties or sixties – brick, but no luck. Not a happy place, but not really a bad place either, every one just walked around, no talking. I did feel she had been there at one time, dunno why, didn’t ask anyone.”
“I think I messed up though, I was in control of the dream then, but right after I took off, I just let the rest of it happen like a non lucid dream. After that point, though, it felt far more real than a dream all the way through. I’ll know better next time.”
“I found her in this old Gothic Kirk-bride building; another rehab, that was beautifully restored with all varnished wood inside. Very beautiful. HUGE, thousands of patients, in the Berkshires. I wandered around looking for her, till I decided to ask at the front desk. I got her room #, found her, and she was beautiful; like she was 18 years old again! And because of the rehab maybe, she had made much progress with her addiction, and was back to the person she was all those years ago, and she was happy.”
“She had back the long, beautiful hair she was always so proud of. Shiny and smooth like silk, and sweet smelling, same as it was back then. She was in her former running shape. Slim, perfectly toned, nice tan, and VERY beautiful, just like she was those many years ago. Almost made me cry, it felt so good to see her happy, even if it was just a dream.”
“She had on an Abington Green Wave track shirt with the number 25 pinned on her back. ( Her address was 25 Central St.), and these very sexy, very short cutoff denim shorts, with a few strategically placed rips. They were ragged, pockets showing, the same pair she used to wear to Nantasket Beach, over a skimpy red string bikini. She was getting ready to run, but I thought it was funny because she always wore track shorts to run in, never the denim.”
“She was in her own room, having her friend Vicki put her hair up to run. French braid (I think that’s what it’s called), It was her favorite! She promised to be back in an hour, she was going out to practice with the cross country team. She asked me to wait in the hall for a few minutes while she stretched? She said we’d have a chance to talk a little in the hall, make out a little, at least, before she went out to run.”
“After she got back, she said we could go back to her room, shower together, make love, spend hours in bed, talking, catching up, for the rest of the day and night, and into the next day if we wanted to, AND… WE REALLY WANTED TO!”
“While waiting in the hall, I got into a conversation with 3 R.O.T.C. guys about how the American military always has traditionally tried to minimize casualties. Really weird. I then went back to her room and she was gone! I ran to the door, out to the road, and to the left I saw the Abington Green Wave cross country team running on the road up a hill. I saw her running with them, could just make out the 25 pinned to her back, and those shorts!
Just before the crest of the hill, she turned left with the team onto the cross country track, and into the woods. Then she was gone!”
“I was very very sad and frustrated, started crying, because we only ended up speaking a few words together. It SUCKED, because I had some things to say to her, that I should have said long ago. I wanted to tell her how sorry I was for going into the military. I did it because I was just a stupid kid back then. I wanted to tell her that if it weren’t for what she did for me by trying to pull me out of my shell all those years ago, I probably would have been dead long ago.”
“Then… I woke up.”
“The reason I think it may have turned into an ADC is that EVERYTHING makes perfect sense in every detail. The more I think about the dream the more it makes sense,
and the more detail I remember. I have had 2 other dreams about her, both very cryptic, hard to make sense out of, but once I had this dream, the other 2 made perfect sense as well.”
“Her name was Carolann Kauppinen.”
My Response in part-
“Hi Ron. I will give you my interpretation. There is A LOT going on here. I will hit as much as I can right off the bat. So, like you said, it started out as a dream, kind of non-sensical. Then, you experienced an out-of-body experience, hence the “squiggly fingers” and “pinch test.” With your newfound wings, you took a detour and watched a battle for a minute before looking for Carolann.”
“Intuitively, you already knew where she was, so you got there and made contact. What you found was that she was restored; her age, health, beauty and happiness. She was doing what she loved to do. The cut off jeans represents that she’s changed her style a little bit.”
“So, here’s what you need to know. This was an ADC, as well as an out of body experience. You went to her though. It sounds like she is in a place where she is happy. She is probably being rehabilitated from, not what her body went through, but what her soul went through while on Earth. You met her in another dimension, where it is possible for you to meet again.”
“Because you are an Earthling, and although it looked like Carolann was leaving for a run and would be coming back, you couldn’t stay where she was for any amount of time without eventually becoming a permanent part of another world. Just know… you made contact. More accurately… she did! She is in the process of healing and restoring herself to the best self she can be. Obviously, she is aware of you and still remembers the bond you once shared.”
“25 is significant. Maybe it is her address, but more likely, she is 25 years old in her new state of being.”
“It sounds like there is some guilt for you to overcome. You can talk to her anywhere, even now, and she will perceive your thoughts and feelings. So you don’t need to wait to see her in your dreams. You are already connected wherever you are. Always! Love is the bond that holds us together.”
“Do you notice how the military keeps popping in? This is something for you to look at. Is there something left incomplete there? Even if just something to notice. Perhaps it was just that you had those regrets for going into the military. Like if you didn’t, you might have saved her life, somehow and returned the favor.”
“Hope that helps, Ron. She is in a good and happy place where she is getting the care she needs. It’s all good for her now. Take care, jade”
“For one thing, thank you for getting back so soon! And your response has helped me a great deal! Right on the money, too. I hope you get plenty of satisfaction from what you’re doing, because it helps people, like me!”
“There are more than a few things your response helped me with. I knew from the dream that she is in heaven, because of a conversation we had years ago. The dream is exactly what we had talked about concerning our ideas of what heaven might be like. I loved old buildings, in our conversation, so I said I hope there was beautiful buildings, and THAT was in the dream! She said in the same conversation that she hoped there was a cross country team to run with and…Voila!”
“But that conversation took place over 30 years ago, and I hadn’t thought of it for years, and only she and I knew about it, so it COULD NOT have been anything else but her!!
At first I thought I saw her in heaven, but I think she was just showing me she was in heaven, because of this conversation, and because her best friend Vicki is still alive. They were track team mates, and best friends. They had a ritual before each track meet where they would put each other’s hair up to run. They both had very long hair, and THAT’S what they were doing in the dream!”
“What I just told you is just the tip of the iceberg. I just really wanted you to know how accurate your interpretation was, and to say…
Commentary- Many times, we drag around the old pain of guilt and regret from our past; things we said and did or didn’t say and do, like it is permanently attached to us. Can you imagine how much energy this takes, as we travel through the time and space of our lives? And sometimes… we have gotten so used to it, that we don’t even realize we are carrying it around anymore, as it becomes just a part of our lives, until we become aware it is even there… living behind us in the past.
Ron, being aware of an incompletion from his past with Carolann, experienced some of this guilt and regret. So much so, that when he heard about Carolann’s misfortune, he actively searched for Carolann again on the internet, as well as the streets of Boston, so he could help her. But it was too late.
It’s amazing to me how a little bit of communication with our deceased loved ones and some understanding goes a long way to begin our healing process. And, for me, this is the point that I am trying to demonstrate as I include the email exchange between Ron and myself. Of course, I was delighted to give Ron my interpretation and I’m so glad he found it comforting, as well as, accurate too. But I loved Ron’s response to my email. You can actually hear both, his relief and excitement through his written words. You can hear that Ron’s past has been instantaneously healed in one fell swoop, as all the puzzle pieces of his past experiences with Carolann; the dreams of her, as well as the interpretation for these dreams, came together in an instant, as ONE. And voila! As Ron puts it. In that moment… Ron “got” what needed to be “gotten” in his realization with Carolann’s visitations. And, as a result… Ron’s past with Carolann was instantaneously completed and healed!
This was Carolann’s parting gift to Ron. And, Carolann’s thanks to Ron, for caring about her, and looking for her to help her out. You are a kind soul, Ron.
While alive, who knows if Carolann knew of Ron’s appreciation for her and the ways she once kept him alive? Could she know how important she was to Ron, and the many others who loved her and worried about her along the way? Could she know what a gift she was to those who crossed her path in life? She knows now.
Life can be, both strange and wonderful. Although we see that Carolann’s life had gone from “good” to what some would consider as”bad”, we see that despite what she went through, in what seemed to be her most difficult times on Earth, she is better than ever now! Ron and all who care for Carolann can rest assured knowing that she is in a really good place in her existence, now.
Once again… Carolann is happy and doing what she loves! All is well.