The Wonder of It All

In this after-death communication, as Reyna wonders… baby Connor lets his mother know that he is still around.

On June 1, 2015, Reyna lost her son, Connor. That was two years ago to the day. He was only 9 months old when SIDS tragically claimed his life. Reyna was 7 months pregnant with his baby sister at the time.

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lost pacifier (Image: Pixabay)

About 8 months after Connor’s passing, his “it’s a boy” pacifier that Reyna previously got at a baby shower for his, then, upcoming birth, disappeared and went missing for 4 months.

Finally, on the morning of June 1, 2016, while Reyna was sitting on the bed, Connor’s blue pacifier all of the sudden resurfaced right in front of her. This was an important day, as it was the one year anniversary of Connor’s passing!

“It was weird though,” Reyna explains, “because I had lost this plastic blue pacifier from Connor’s baby shower and I was wondering where it was.”

Also, in another after-death communication about her baby, Connor, Reyna shares- “A few months ago, I was thinking of returning back to work, so I went to a meeting/training that is required before working there. Before leaving, and while I was getting ready, I was feeling sad that baby Connor wasn’t there to see me getting ready for work. I was thinking if he were alive he would be watching me get ready, and running around me, and I felt like I was missing out.”

“Then, while I was looking in the mirror doing something, I felt 2 tugs from the bottom of my shirt. I thought maybe it was my imagination and that maybe I somehow made my shirt tug down even though it has never happened before. But then, it happened again… 2 tugs. It was like a little child had grabbed the bottom of my blouse and tugged it twice allowing me to experience what he would have been doing that day, as I was getting ready to leave.”

“Now, my daughter does this when I pass her and she wants me to stay. She’ll grab the bottom of my shirt and pull it, so I guess it really is something small children do.”

Commentary- As if late stage pregnancy was not challenging enough at the time, I’m sure it was truly devastating for Reyna to lose her infant child on top of it all. My heart goes out to Reyna who, as a mother and life giver, has had to face the unthinkable throughout this whole difficult and tragic experience. Reyna is an amazing woman who is filled with commendable strength and courage.

Sometime after Connor’s blue pacifier disappeared, Reyna wondered where it was. Perhaps Connor still needed it in some way, perhaps it’s disappearance helped to set the stage for it’s reappearance. Whatever the reason for it’s disappearance and wherever it went for those 4 months, it seems like it may have magically appeared as a result of Reyna’s wonderment. 

This is also demonstrated in the second example Reyna gives of wondering what it would be like or what Connor would be doing as she was preparing to leave the house for work. You’ll notice, after each of these experiences of wonderment, Reyna receives a response, specifically associated to what she was wondering about.

Why am I making a big deal about this? Why have I bolded key words in Reyna’s story about wonderment above? What exactly is the definition of wonderment, anyway? I’ll give you my definition.

To wonder is to be curious about knowing something. To wonder is to have the desire to dwell in an inquiry long enough to have the unknown, reveal itself.

I cannot tell you enough about how powerful the state of wonderment is in connecting to the unknown, and in coaxing the unknown into the realm of the known. To seriously wonder in curiosity is to ask a question to the great and infinite Universe. Unfortunately…when we put a question out there in wonderment, too often, instead of realizing the holy and amazing nature of what we are actually doing, and what is actually possible to us if we are patient… we don’t always stick around for the answer. Unaware of the magnitude of possibility, and busy as we can be at times, we move on with our daily routine without ever thinking twice about it.

Now, in Reyna’s case, she stuck around in her inquiry long enough to get a response. In the last example Reyna gave, the response was instantaneous.

Reyna also tapped into her creative mind when she thought that Connor tugging on her shirt might have only been her imagination. The only thing is… it is only through the creative mind that she would have noticed anything of a spiritual nature in the first place. My point to all those who are more than ready to discount their imaginations as false or wishful thinking… think twice, as your imagination is nothing less than the spiritual part of your brain. That’s a lot! The creative mind has great power when it comes to understanding the things of spirit and manifesting spiritual things into the physical realm.

On at least those two occasions, we have Reyna’s examples of how the unknown became known to her through the state of wonderment. And, for validations sake, a year or so later, her new baby girl gave her the experience that, yes, this is what small children really do. Whether it is our loved ones in the physical world or those in the spiritual world, this is exactly what small children really do.

I find it remarkable and telling that Connor’s blue pacifier reappeared on the first year anniversary of Connor’s passing. This shows us that Connor was not only aware of his mommy’s thoughts about him and his missing pacifier, but also, mindful of his mother’s sorrowful feelings over the loss of her beautiful infant son. The pacifier that 9-month-old Connor once needed for calming and comfort, in his own new and sometimes frightening world, was not only a very sweet sign, but was now being offered, on this very special day as a gift to his mother, who, for the last year since his passing, had deeply grieved and missed her little angel very, very much.

The Wonder of it all

The Wonder of It All (Image: Pixabay)

They Really Do Hear Us!

A few days after posting Karen’s latest after-death communication from Marcus, Messages Through Meditation, she phoned me to report an interesting development.

Before leaving for work that morning, Karen and Marcus’s Aunt were texting back and forth about the story, Messages Through Meditation, I recently posted on this site. This was only a precursor for what was to soon come.

Marcus

Marcus

May is Marcus’s birthday month. It will be the second year since his untimely passing that Karen will not be able to celebrate his birthday with him. Back in October of 2015, sadly, Marcus ended up taking his life when he lost his battle with bipolar depression. Although Karen has forgiven him, of course, her loss is still difficult.

On her way to work this particular morning, Karen was talking to Marcus in the car. More specifically, Karen was stating her displeasure of having to live her life without him in it. Well, she told me, she might have actually been yelling a little bit too, as she asked “Why?” You see… Marcus was the love of Karen’s life. Continue reading

Is Suicide the Answer?

Since Raj’s tragic passing, Archana has been devastated enough to consider suicide. But this time, Raj asks her to promise to serve out her purpose without him.

Archana writes:
“Yesterday when I got up, I stood in front of God’s photo and said, “It’s enough, and I’m tired. Please take me back to you!”

“Even while talking to a friend at another time, I said, “I have no intention of living. Every day, I wake up hoping it should be the last day. But somehow, death is not ready for me yet.”

Godavari River

Godavari River. Across the river where Raj drown.

“Well, last night, I had a dream where I was at the river bank where Raj tragically drowned. In my dream, I was talking to a friend about how the tragedy happened. Then, to my surprise, Raj came walking up in the sand and sat down next to me. I smiled at him and asked, “When is my turn? I want to be with you.” He took my hand in his and said, “Promise me that you’ll not commit suicide.”

“I don’t remember what happened after that, but it felt good to know that Raj was listening to my words. Still… it’s really tough to take so much pain in one life.” Continue reading

“I Didn’t See That Coming!”

“I didn’t see that coming” is a common phrase said by someone who has been completely blind-sided by the unexpected, in this case, the unanticipated loss of something cherished. It is the mental, psychological and emotional energy created from this loss that forcefully thrusts us into a tailspin of thoughts and emotions we would rather not think and feel!

As humans, we operate as though life is predicable, never thinking that at any moment there could be a huge interruption in it that informs us otherwise. But, what’s really so is this; life is made up of a series of many random events that we have very little conscious control over. Sometimes we go for long periods of time without one unpleasant experience, then… something happens… and maybe we experience a long string of them.
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